Tuesday, February 24, 2009


Today I am wondering if spring has finally sprung? It doesn't necessarily feel particularly warm outside, however it's not freezing so that is a bonus. However, despite the lack of extremely warm tempertures the sun is shining and the snow is melting....I am jumping for joy because of ths. So, I am wondering is this the beginning of spring or is mother nature just playing a trick on us and will send winter back in a week or so? I am crossing my fingers it's not a joke! I love spring and really really dislike winter. I love being able to open my curtains and see sunshine instead of snow dumping down and piling up! I am hoping so much for spring that I feel like breaking out into a song and dance number for mother natures hopeful enjoyment and hopeful convincing that it is time for spring. Think it would work? Any ideas for the words to my song? I keep thinking of the Sunbeam song (thanks to savannah)...how about this version to that tune...

I am ready for sun Beams to shine on me each day
In every way try to warm me at home at school at play
Some Sun Beams, Some Sun Beams, I am praying for Sun Beams
Some Sun Beams, Some Sun Beams, I want the sun Beams to stay!

In honor of our springy, sunshiney day as well as my new sunbeam song, here is a video clip of my cute little cousin Savannah singing her new favorite song... Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam!

Sorry it's sideways...can't figure out how to fix that...mm...

Monday, February 23, 2009

One Long Saturday

First of all I want to apologize to anyone who has tried to post a comment on my new blog and have not been able to to, I've been playing around with the settings tonight and I think I have fixed the problem. Let me know if there are still problems with it and I'll see what I can do, but for now I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I am pleased to announce that I am back to living at my house again! My head still hurts pretty bad sometimes, but I'm dealing with it ok. I just have to pace myself and not overdue things. Although I didn't do very good at that Saturday. My plan for last Saturday was to go to weber state to see a man by the name of Tomas Kubinek perform. He was hilarious! If any of you ever have a chance to see him I would highly recommend it. He is a comedian/magician/mime...you name it he does it. You can check out clips of his performances on his website at www.kubinek.com. After the performance I went to dinner with my mom and sister. It was a great afternoon! All would have been just fine but after we ate dinner I packed up all my stuff and my mom took my back to my house. Upon arriving at my house in North Ogden I learned I was pretty much snowed out. The snow was weighing down on the trees that arch over my walkway and made it impossible to pass through. There was so much snow that I had to wade through knee deep snow banks in order to get to my front door! I called my home teacher who is Amazing and he came over and helped me shovel a small path from my front door to my car and then cleared out my driveway so I could get my car out. I went in that night and realized I had done a bit too much all in one day and my head was throbbing! Luckily I was able to take some meds and get some sleep and rest me poor little head enough that I was able to get up and go to church in the morning.

It was a long Saturday, but all is well now and life is gettin back to normal...YAY!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Snowed In

It started snowing late last night and has not stopped yet. It is such a blizzard out there that they even cancelled classes at the university. It's actually very pretty outside, but I am super glad I don't have to go out in it. Since I'm still at my mom's house we decided to have a little 24 party. We went to the store last night about 11 pm and got all kinds of munchies. We put in season 4 of our favorite show 24 about midnight and the party began. We watched four hours last night and finally went to bed about 4 am. Then we woke up this morning, fixed breakfast, and started into the party again. It's so nice and so much of fun to just lay around in my pj's, cuddle up in a blanket, eat all kinds of munchies, and watch the best show ever, not to mention the show with the sexiest man around...Keifer Sutherland! It's been a fun day and we still have 18 hours left of the party!! Wahoo!! Snowed in days are SO fun! :0)

Sunday, February 15, 2009

V-Day Girls Style

Well, this valentines day had the opportunity to be way depressing. It is my mom's first valentines day without my dad in a long time. I know it was hard for her imagining that he was probably out celebrating with his new girlfriend. For me it was just another single awareness day, and Tara was just going along with the feelings my mom and I were putting out. So we decided to change the feeling of the day. We got together and went to a movie. It was a good way to take our minds off of our troubles for a few hours. Then we went to the mall for a bit and just kinda windowshopped. After spending a bit of time there we went out to dinner...and we were sure to order desert!! Now we are home just kiinda chillin. I'm watching Sleepless in Seattle. Basically today could have been a sad, depressing, day; but we turned it around and made it a fun girls night out. All in all it was a pretty good day in spite of all the garbage in our lives right now.

Thursday, February 12, 2009


Ok, so for any of you that were reading my blog before and are now joining me on my new blog I thought I would explain the reason for the change. I have recently gained a love for butterflies. You see a caterpillar enters a cocoon a caterpillar and a while later he struggles to come out of his cocoon all the while building up these new and interesting things on his back. Once he is out he starts to wonder what's happened, he's different, he is a little bit excited and a little scared to death. He's not sure how to use these things on his back, so he flaps one and it felt pretty good, so he flaps the other. Pretty soon he takes off if flight and soars around as a beautiful butterfly. This is a great analogy for my life. I've been a caterpillar for a long time, but then I entered a cocoon, I knew there were changes that needed to be made in my life and it was time to make them. Coming out of my cocoon has not been easy, but I know it is helping me build the strength my wings will need to fly one day. I am daily striving to become a butterfly, to learn how to flap my wings one at a time and discover the beautiful me that is emerging from the cocoon. I know that as I continue along the paths I'm on, one day I will find myself soaring around like a beautiful butterfly.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I'm Bored

I just have to say that I am SO bored. I really wish my head would put itself back together and stop hurting, so that I could get back to actually having a life. I was having a perfectly fun life and then all of a sudden one little whack of my head and life gets all dull and boring. It's like fun just flew out the window and didn't even bother to wave goodbye. Now I am stuck with watching tv and checking my email ten times a day just to find there still isn't anything there! So, if anyone out there has any bright ideas of things I can do while I'm drugged and laid up here at my mothers house that woud be awesome. In the meantime I am just making a list of all the things I am going to do as soon as I am healthy again. So far that list is getting quite long....I'm ready to do just about anything like bungee jumping off mount kilimanjaro!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Funny Movies

Being sick there isn't much to do. I spend my days lying around the house playing on either facebook or webkinz (yes I own a webkinz....three actually) or I waste the time away watching movies. The other night my mom rented a movie that I'd heard was a good movie, but that was all we knew about it. As we started to watch it we were instantly laughing. We laughed so hard throughout the show that my friend Dave even had to get up and walk around because his gut hurt from laughing so hard! So, here I am highly reccomending the movie called "Ghost Town", you all must now go and rent said movie and laugh as hard as you possibly can. Keep in mind that it really wouldn't be so bad a thing to die laughing. Once you've seen it you can comment and tell me how much you loved it. On the other hand if you are some insanely wierd person who didn't like the movie, and didn't laugh until you cried then please don't comment and make me argue with you. LOL

Have fun laughing!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Rough Weekend

Well life lately has been a little overwhelming. It seems like things were going well and then the last few days happened. I was at home Thursday night getting ready for bed when I had one of my spells. I woke up extremely nauseated and in a lot of pain. Turns out I had hit my head pretty hard on the way down on my cast iron wood burning stove as well as the rocky cement it sits on. I was up pretty much up all night throwing up because I was so sick from the pain. In the morning I finally found a ride down to the hospital where they did a cat scan that showed I had sustained a concussion and a small bruise on my brain. Can we say...painful!! I've been staying the last few days at my mom's house because I can't be alone. I have to be closely monitored in case of any swelling on my brain. I've been taking Lortab for the pain and other meds for the nausea that comes with being in so much pain. I talkied with the doctor today and they said if I'm not feeling a whole lot better by Monday they are going to redo the cat scan to make sure my brain bleed isn't getting any worse.

While I was in the ER waiting for the results of my scan my mom came in and told me she had just lost her job. This was horrible news. With my parents separation and my dad's lack of employment my mother is the sole supporter of this family. She is extremely depressed and struggling with what the future may hold for my family now. They are for sure not going to be able to keep the house and that makes my mom even more sad. She is scared she isn't going to be able to find another job at her age especially with the economy the way it is. However, she is thinking of going back to school and learning to do something different, I think it's awesome she's considering this idea. it shows me what a strong and dedicated woman my mother is. I love her!

Then Sunday night my best friend called to tell me his mom was kicking him out of the house and he had no where to go at all. My mom and I went and got him and he's been staying here with me at my mom's. I'm not sure how long that is going to be for, but I'm glad he's here and safe with a roof over his head and food to eat. He is such a good guy and deserves to feel loved and not treated the way his family treats him. Once again I love my mom for all she is doing for him. She has truly taken him under her wing and is helping him just like he was her own child. Did I mention that I love my mom!!

So, to summarize life isn't going all that well these days, but I have hope. I recieved a blessing from my bishop friday night and in that blessing he spoke about how the Lord is watching over us and knows what we are going through. These may not be things we would ever have asked for or wanted to go through, but I'm sure that Heavenly Father has a reason for it all and if we just take things one day at a time and trust in Him it will all work out in the end.

btw, sorry if there are a lot of spelling errors or this post doesn't make a lot of sense...keep in mind i'm drugged up on lortab right now!! I'll fix it all once I'm better and thinking more clearly.